The mild trouble sleeping I mentioned in my last journal has escalated somewhat. I now find it exceptionally difficult to sleep, and even harder to wake up.

I've had a lot of walk these past two or so months, all coming together in the last 3 weeks. I haven't had much time for anything really...And it all came down to me practically crashing out over the weekend and messing up my entire sleep schedule by sleeping 20 hours in a row. Good times.

I handed in my crab screensaver, splashscreen, portfolio and report, and a lengthy review of Robotron 2084, all of which were timed so close together that I found myself utterly exhausted. Tomorrow there is more in, and a presentation to give- one that I get the feeling I'll be doing.

Had a bit of a money crisis shortly after I got back from visiting my family...All sorted now but it still impacted my food situation a bit. Dry cornflakes suck. I'm buying milk today.

Recently so very many people from my past, all almost completely unrelated, have been getting in contact with me, and (here's the funny part) when I respond, they vanish from the face of the earth.

This kind of all came into a point when at the beginning of the month a friend from a long long time ago asked for my help, and then just vanished when I offered it. She was the last of three people to just contact me and vanish in the last month.

So I guess I'm starting to drop contact with these people-Either my responses are too much or too little for them, or they just think better of contacting me at a later date, which would be a blow to my ego if it weren't so indestructible right now.

Speaking of blows to my ego...I have met no one here as of yet who I feel I can completely trust, and those I was beginning to have betrayed me already, one after another. They are useless, I know...But in my haste to perhaps find a friend here I neglected to complete my initial analysis before trying to trust them. It was a mistake...A real amateur mistake.

Now who knows where things will go from here...



Ah...Sunset. Best shower and leave. I have things to do.

I hope you are all well. I hope to get back in contact with most of you soon. I have a rather sizeable amount of deviations to go through before I can be truly caught up, so I guess I'll start that when I get time.

I hope you are all well. I am truly sorry for not being on here more often.

~
Demi